I’ve been working on Girl In Space — brainstorming, planning, writing, recording, editing, producing, marketing — since about June 2017. But when I sat down this morning to start writing Episode 105 (a.k.a. the 5th episode of season 1), I found myself absolutely terrified.
That’s why I’m writing this now instead. (Because if there’s one thing I’m good at, it’s procrastination. 
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Why would I be terrified to work on something that a.) I created, and b.) I love?
I mean, I’m living the writing dream. Instead of being trapped in a cubicle working for someone else, I’m in a swanky coffee shop, watching the sun rise over a frozen prairie…
Staring at a blank screen.
Knowing that the things I put onto this screen will be read and judged by thousands.
Knowing that their judgment can determine my long-term success.
No pressure.
Realizing that while I LOVE writing, it is actually more difficult than my 8-to-5 job ever was.
And that that is a good thing.
My reward isn’t relaxation.
It’s a challenge.
It’s a megaphone from which my message can be heard.
It’s the opportunity to make a difference.
It’s my job today to face those fears, embrace them, chew them up, spit them out, and keep on creating.
